Thursday, April 16, 2009

As I was walking down to my tennis club I was thinking about, my parents at home moving house. I realized that the house at Pinhorn Road now belongs to someone else,it's empty waiting for it's next owner to occupy it.I'm really going to miss that house, it's probably the house I remember the most, cause the other houses I was to young to remember much.I'm going to miss my neighbour huey yuen,probably the best neighbour ever..hehe.All the memories I had in that house,the rabbits i used to have and also Cody my dog.I hate change, I really do,but change has to happen.change.

Change is something that happens spontaneously, it happens when you expect it and sometimes when you wish it never happened.I realized coming here to NZ was a huge change,but i was looking forward to that change and I kinda wanna it to stay like this.I really do like my life in NZ now but I defiantely wish my parents were here.I don't really any changes now.Even the seasons, I wish it was summer or spring all year round,but everyone knows that winter will come and so will autumn. The trees will tell even if u didn't wanna admit it. It's something you can't control.change.

I also thought about growing older, i'll be 20 next year.yes i know quick eh.It freaks me out but again it's something you can't do anything about it. i wish I could stay 18 forever or never grow think and wonder what you would be like in 20 years time and then you realize I might be married and have kids.yikes again.then you don't wanna think about it.i hate change.another change that has happen to me is that i'm reading twilight now.haha,yes i am.and guess what it is probably the first romance novel i'm reading ever.i've always been reading comedy,adventure and mystery.i guess i thought that romance stories only went one way, boy like girl,girl like boy.Also when I read these kinda things i realized that this doesn't happen in the real world,maybe that's why i don't fancy romance's more fiction than fiction.change.

As you grow up the guy that you had a crush on also probably changed.I mean unless you and with him now,you probably change wouldn't wanna crush on a guy until he's married and still have a crush on him.we probably start of going crazy about guys with cute faces,love at first sight, and then there's a phase where girls would fight over celebrities even though we know we'll never get them.but as you grow older you realized that there are guys around you that might be the one,maybe the one across your house or the one you sit next to in becomes more down to earth rather than puppy love.we all go through that phase but things change and this one for the better

When my sister came, i wasn't very excited I can tell you that.i was shocked,what were my parents thinking, i thought it was just goin to be daryl and i forever.I can tell you the first year or more wasn't the greatest year.Erinn needed attention and that meant drop what your doing and go play with her.i told my mum maybe you had Erinn at the wrong time, I need to study to make sure I got into colllege and Erinn wasn't making it easy.But you ask me know, i guess i don't regret it :P.change.

One of the major changes I see, are my friends.Do your friends change as you grow older and even more your best friends.You think about BFF(best friends forever),at that point you think that you got it,we're going to be tight for life. But moving to NZ made me realize that maybe just ,maybe things aren't going to be tight forever. I don't want my friendship to change, something you take ages to build and to give it up like that, i guess it's not worth it.But it's hard to keep in touch and sometimes I don't feel like putting in the effort.I don't want change but i also don't know what to do.When your young, you think the world revolves around you and then as you grow older you realizes life isn't going to be a bed of roses.people will do whatever they need to do to get to the top.You look around and you see how much the world change,little kids wearing designer clothes or talking about the lattest fashion,something that i don't clothes probably will stay the same forever.Kids using technology like they were born learning how to use in the their mom's womb.Technology gets smarter while we the people probably will get dumber (like in the show wall-e).change.

i don't like change, I wish time would stop but it wouldn't.change is necessary but doesn't mean I have to like can keep wishing but nothing is going to happen.The road is long and arduous but there's a light at the end,it's whether or not we want to see it.Change.